Monday, August 15
So I had my tarot read Saturday, I believe in such things however, I am always a little skeptical of them, I think that more than anything it is because I am afraid of them. The reading gave me no reason to be otherwise. It was dead on the bullseye with my past and current situations regarding love and finances, and stated that my outcome isn't so great, well I do have a dark man coming into the picture so they say. Basically they said I need to let go of my past and not let it hinder my decisions today, ahh maybe because the past is the past and that is where I should leave it.
The new job function at work is tiresome, I have a lot to do and not alot of time to do it, I am always in a time crunch and that is stressful. But I think in the long run once I am completely used to it I will be just fine.
Saturday met A. And her crew out at a local bar. I saw a bunch of people from way back in the day that I haven't seen in forever and until recently hadn't even thought about. I am not quite sure why I stopped being around them. I sometimes wish that I hadn't stopped though. They are all so awesome. There are some new people in the group that weren't there before, such as M>L>'s wife, he is so lucky to have found someone like her. ahhh maybe one day I will find someone that I will be lucky to have. Anyway back to Saturday night Jack and I went up there and were hanging out. We went back to Minnie mouse's new apartment to hang out, I was strangely drawn to talk to boy. That was all that I wanted to do. SO I invite everyone to go swimming before we leave. boy.'s response is "Am I going swimming" to this I respond, um are you and he say I don't know am I? So I tell him yes. After we do that 45,000 times we leave. And go swimming. That started the almost 4 hours of conversation that lead to me not going to bed at ALL on Saturday. There was no physical contact between the two of us, it was so nice to talk to someone with out them trying to stick there tongue down my throat. However I think I wouldn't mind that in the future maybe, if he wants, well if he calls, why am I even thinking about this, I have to just get to him calling me before I can wish of other things huh?
The new job function at work is tiresome, I have a lot to do and not alot of time to do it, I am always in a time crunch and that is stressful. But I think in the long run once I am completely used to it I will be just fine.
Saturday met A. And her crew out at a local bar. I saw a bunch of people from way back in the day that I haven't seen in forever and until recently hadn't even thought about. I am not quite sure why I stopped being around them. I sometimes wish that I hadn't stopped though. They are all so awesome. There are some new people in the group that weren't there before, such as M>L>'s wife, he is so lucky to have found someone like her. ahhh maybe one day I will find someone that I will be lucky to have. Anyway back to Saturday night Jack and I went up there and were hanging out. We went back to Minnie mouse's new apartment to hang out, I was strangely drawn to talk to boy. That was all that I wanted to do. SO I invite everyone to go swimming before we leave. boy.'s response is "Am I going swimming" to this I respond, um are you and he say I don't know am I? So I tell him yes. After we do that 45,000 times we leave. And go swimming. That started the almost 4 hours of conversation that lead to me not going to bed at ALL on Saturday. There was no physical contact between the two of us, it was so nice to talk to someone with out them trying to stick there tongue down my throat. However I think I wouldn't mind that in the future maybe, if he wants, well if he calls, why am I even thinking about this, I have to just get to him calling me before I can wish of other things huh?
I am really going to have to try to work through this hurt I have though, I wanted so badly to comfort Jack, but I just can't comfort anyone in this matter, I can't handle it myself. The only way that I handle it is by not really dealing with it. And if I have to talk to someone who is having trouble, well then I might just loose it and none of that can be going on around here.
Song of the Day: Wreck of the Day .....Anna Nalick
