Friday, April 29
So T.N. at work is on my last ever loving nerve, she is intentional trying to get MY hot guy to go out with her on Saturday and she know that I asked him to chaperone B. and I to a party. And she is telling him that all this and that will be going on there and for pete’s sake, the boy smokes out and we don’t but it doesn’t bother me. Jeepers creepers she is such a bitch!!!! I will hang out with my hot guy this weekend if it’s the last thing that I do!
Thursday, April 28
I cried a tear...You wiped it dry
I was confused you….You cleared my mind
I sold my soul… you bought it back for me
And held me up.... and gave me dignity
Some how you needed me
I was confused you….You cleared my mind
I sold my soul… you bought it back for me
And held me up.... and gave me dignity
Some how you needed me
Wednesday, April 27
I bah grrrrr… whhhaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!! I need a car and I can’t stand it anymore I wish I could work another job, but being as though I have a hard enough time getting to the one I have I don’t think that I should take on another.
My M. is so ignoring me! :(
Thursday, April 21
Aidia
Do you ever have the moments when you feel that you have not made an impact on anyone’s life in any way. And isn’t that what we are here for is to influence people in positive ways. However we try it never seems to work. Failure is so hard to accept. Justin still is not answering his phone, except he will answer and say ‘I am working” and hang up.
I hate these days, John is right in front of my face and he will not go away. He does that to me when to much time has passed for me not to think about him, I did cover his picture on my desk, got tired of girls wanting to be hooked up with my dead brother. Maybe that is the issue, I will uncover it……… okay done. My god I miss him so much it is hurting to breathe now. His dog is at my moms and when I have been over there this big black lab that is the most gentle creature next to him of course follows me around and licks the back of my leg. She is so sweet I want to take her home with me. I think now is a good time for me to go smoke.
M. finally admitted that he is a mean liar, or should I say minor untruthitude that would be in the words of M.
I hate these days, John is right in front of my face and he will not go away. He does that to me when to much time has passed for me not to think about him, I did cover his picture on my desk, got tired of girls wanting to be hooked up with my dead brother. Maybe that is the issue, I will uncover it……… okay done. My god I miss him so much it is hurting to breathe now. His dog is at my moms and when I have been over there this big black lab that is the most gentle creature next to him of course follows me around and licks the back of my leg. She is so sweet I want to take her home with me. I think now is a good time for me to go smoke.
M. finally admitted that he is a mean liar, or should I say minor untruthitude that would be in the words of M.
Wednesday, April 20
good god someone get me out of here! Hot guy is looking so super hot today even with blonde hair. I just am going to die. I hope that he comes out Saturday. this could be interesting, considering the new developments.... hmmmm only time will tell
thought for the day
"A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg
even though he knows that you are slightly cracked."
-Bernard Meltzer
Missing my Crizzle fo shizzle!
Crittle, oh Crittle where are you??? I miss you so.... I can't email you so I am just sitting her biting my nails missing you.... Lovely beautiful crizzle...... =( I will sit under my desk now.
Tuesday, April 19
April 19th 1997
Today is a bunch of crap ……. Today is April 19th oh that fateful day 8 years ago, if only I had walked away… turned my head… and said no… But then where would I be today, what kind of person would I be?? I guess he made me who I am today. Bitter, rejected and broken for all the world. Haven’t spoken to him in over a month, he hasn’t been returning my calls, and he would call me today, today of all days he would call. Bastard!
So Friday was interesting, I got wasted and groped by some strange bald guy that a co-worker brought out, which some how in my drunken stooper I ended up making out with said co-worker. Actually I made out with two co-workers, one more than the other, and also one doesn’t count. I am so sleepy today. I was out yesterday because my daughter and her ridiculous fevers. Still don’t have a car, but with any luck, (which I have none) it will be able to be fixed… soon! Bevins is not entertaining me, except for when he said that I couldn’t handle him, after he called me dirty, to which I informed him that name has already been assigned to Dirti Boi!
So Friday was interesting, I got wasted and groped by some strange bald guy that a co-worker brought out, which some how in my drunken stooper I ended up making out with said co-worker. Actually I made out with two co-workers, one more than the other, and also one doesn’t count. I am so sleepy today. I was out yesterday because my daughter and her ridiculous fevers. Still don’t have a car, but with any luck, (which I have none) it will be able to be fixed… soon! Bevins is not entertaining me, except for when he said that I couldn’t handle him, after he called me dirty, to which I informed him that name has already been assigned to Dirti Boi!
Friday, April 15
"For attractive lips, speak words of kindness.
For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people.
For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry.
For beautiful hair, let a child run his fingers through it once a day.
For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone.
As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands; one for helping yourself and the other for helping others."
- Audrey Hepburn
- Audrey Hepburn
Monday, April 11
GRRR!!!!
Jeez when it rains it pours. So now my car is not working at all, it has been confirmed that this retard who hit me does not have insurance, and I have no vehicle, what to do what to do……
Hot Guy has also really thrown me for a loop. I made a short appearance at Happy Hour on Friday as to which he sat next to me and stayed outside to talk to me, which that is no big deal and really didn’t confuse me since we are “friends”. However on Saturday he came to the candle party at Bran’s house that T.N. threw he was being his usual friendly self, then he came back over to go out with us which was really nice of him to drive our drunk asses around. We were still getting ready when he got back over so that was weird because I was only half made up. He is really goofy, I really like that about him, and he doesn’t seem to act like anything that he is not. But who cares about him anyway. Not me! I am such a liar. Anyway he was all over me!!! If I walked off, it wasn’t long until he was right behind me with his arms wrapped around me. Like I was his or something. What the hell is that, I mean I am fine with that if that is the way its going to be, but you can’t have it both ways, either you want me or you don’t. Bah I HATE men. And also all the older ladies thought he was hot and were giving me dirty looks. I thought that was funny I was like ah ha!!
Hot Guy has also really thrown me for a loop. I made a short appearance at Happy Hour on Friday as to which he sat next to me and stayed outside to talk to me, which that is no big deal and really didn’t confuse me since we are “friends”. However on Saturday he came to the candle party at Bran’s house that T.N. threw he was being his usual friendly self, then he came back over to go out with us which was really nice of him to drive our drunk asses around. We were still getting ready when he got back over so that was weird because I was only half made up. He is really goofy, I really like that about him, and he doesn’t seem to act like anything that he is not. But who cares about him anyway. Not me! I am such a liar. Anyway he was all over me!!! If I walked off, it wasn’t long until he was right behind me with his arms wrapped around me. Like I was his or something. What the hell is that, I mean I am fine with that if that is the way its going to be, but you can’t have it both ways, either you want me or you don’t. Bah I HATE men. And also all the older ladies thought he was hot and were giving me dirty looks. I thought that was funny I was like ah ha!!
Thursday, April 7
why
why do these things happen, so my insurance isn't going to pay to fix my car, which the back door won't open. nor will the trunk. so I am just screwed.
Wednesday, April 6
WTF!!!
Seriously, what is wrong with people, why would you drive around with no license and no insurance!!! So my car is completely crumpled and I hope that my insurance will pay for it, and on top of it all my neck is killing me!!!!! Stupid bastard!!!!
Tuesday, April 5
MY ISSUES
NO CIGS SINCE SATURDAY
NO BOOTY SINCE LAST MONDAY
ONE AT A TIME THIS WOULD BE OK,
AS A COMBO THIS IS BAD ( NO I WOULD NOT LIKE TO SUPER SIZE IT)
NO CIGS SINCE SATURDAY
NO BOOTY SINCE LAST MONDAY
ONE AT A TIME THIS WOULD BE OK,
AS A COMBO THIS IS BAD ( NO I WOULD NOT LIKE TO SUPER SIZE IT)
Friday, April 1
So the Hot Guy called me Wednesday night, which took me completely by surprise, it was cool because he so not acting like he was trying to be cool, you could really tell that he was just being himself which made him even hotter.
Made an attempt at helping crittle move today, didn't get much down, but a lot of talking, always makes me feel good for us to talk because we have conversation. she always tries to help me make sense of my life. maybe one day I will listen to her. but we will see......
so the pope is about to die, that is sad, also Terri Schiavo died how ironic is that, a bulimic girl who starved herself, causing herself 15 years of what must have been hell for her, however no one knows, actually ends up starving to death, very sad this coming from a bulimic. I wonder if she was stuck in her body all of that time just living in hell or if she was able to be free, I wonder how that works since she wasn't dead I guess she must have just been stuck in her own personal prison, how awful would that be, to not be able to tell the people that you love that you love them, or that you were suffering and didn't want to live like that anymore, I mean seriously people who would want to live like that, I sure as shit wouldn't, and after 15 years really she isn't going to get better. Enough depressing crap I am hungry now and I am going to go eat.
Made an attempt at helping crittle move today, didn't get much down, but a lot of talking, always makes me feel good for us to talk because we have conversation. she always tries to help me make sense of my life. maybe one day I will listen to her. but we will see......
so the pope is about to die, that is sad, also Terri Schiavo died how ironic is that, a bulimic girl who starved herself, causing herself 15 years of what must have been hell for her, however no one knows, actually ends up starving to death, very sad this coming from a bulimic. I wonder if she was stuck in her body all of that time just living in hell or if she was able to be free, I wonder how that works since she wasn't dead I guess she must have just been stuck in her own personal prison, how awful would that be, to not be able to tell the people that you love that you love them, or that you were suffering and didn't want to live like that anymore, I mean seriously people who would want to live like that, I sure as shit wouldn't, and after 15 years really she isn't going to get better. Enough depressing crap I am hungry now and I am going to go eat.
